Saturday, April 30, 2011

I'm Baaaccckk...New House, New Goals

Well this year has definitely NOT gone the way that I planned, it's been a roller-coaster health-wise for both Lane and I, and things have gotten WAY off track. But I can't let that keep me down, and I think I need a fresh start(mentally, anyways) so I can get back to where I want to be.

We are moved in to our new house and busy unpacking. It feels SOOOO awesome to finally have some space to move! But, bigger house, and carpet, means I have to tweak my routines(which I need to get back into anyways) and I'm still trying to figure out the best way to do that.

I've gotten into the habit the last few months of basically going non-stop, and that's one major thing that is going to have to change. My body just can't handle playdates every day on top of doctor's appointments, the house, and Lane's schedule. I get so caught up in wanting to spend time with other people, and wanting Lane to have that socialization, that I lose sight of what should be at the top of my priorities-my family. Lane needs consistency, I've noticed that his eating and sleeping habits both suffer when we are on the go so much, even if he has a blast and loves being around other kids. And my husband is happiest when he can come home from work and not be stressed about the house being a wreck, or laundry being piled up for days. I WISH with all of my heart, that I could be Superwoman and do it all, but I just can't. Whether it's the 11 months of sleep deprivation, or just simply my health limitations, or a combination of both, I'm not sure, but I just don't have the energy to go go go, and then come home and take care of things here. I've also noticed that when I go to a lot of things during the week, by the time Sunday rolls around, I'm so exhausted I don't make it to church. I'm making a major overhaul of my priorities starting now, and as much as I love seeing everyone a lot, we are just going to have to limit our playdates during the week to one or two.

I ordered the invitations for Lane's birthday party today, and I have to admit, I cried a little. I can't believe my baby will be one in just over a month! It's not supposed to go this fast! But I am so happy that he is growing and learning SO much every day! My only prayer is that his immune system will catch up with the rest of his body over the next few months so we can have a happy AND healthy little man!